Hamster

A little hamster my brother bought yesterday. It was in the corner of it's cage so i can't take a good photo. We haven't buy a proper cage yet. Gonna buy it soon.

clay ...

Baru aja bikin clay menggunakan tepung terigu, lem fox, dan pewarna dengan warna merah cabe.
Pembuatannya mudah.tapi lumayan ribet. Udah gitu merah cabe nya jadi kayak merah darah. Berasa megang organ tubuh dalam manusia hii. . . Yg kanan itu punya tifan, yg kiri itu bakpao punya gw keke

putih merah-putih biru-putih abu

Hari ini jadwal mentor ke PLANETARIUM.

Kayaknya udah berabad-abad gak kesana. Terakhir seinget gw waktu SD. Itu juga masih kecil banget.

Tapi ternyata setelah menempuh perjalanan cukup jauh, Planetarium nya TUTUP. T^T

Jadi akhirnya kita berkeliling di sekitar Taman Ismail Marzuki dan makan pagi-siang bersama.

Setelah makan, akhirnya kita memutuskan untuk pergi ke tempat lain. Berhubung Planetariumnya tutup, mau ngapain juga disana. Jadi kami ke Gramedia Matraman. Padahal udah berharap banget itu bakal liat bintang. Apalagi bintang di Jakarta udah gak keliatan gara-gara lampu kota yang sangat terang benderang mengalahkan cahaya bintang.

Di Gramedia juga cuma jalan gak tentu arah. Tapi akhirnya gw beli buku catatan yang sampulnya terbuat dari kulit. Menurut gw bukunya lucu. Warnanya hitam. Sampulnya bertekstur *iyalah..kulit =___= *

Pulang dari Gramedia, Gw, Qisti, Putri mampir ke Don's Burger di PGC. Bertiga kita beli 5 beef burger+keju, 1 special burger, 1 kentang, dan dua softdrink. Alhasil itu bikin perut kenyang banget.
Selesai makan, kami pulang kerumah masing-masing.

Nah! Dijalan pulang gatau kenapa gw mikir kayak gini :
Dulu jamannya pake seragam Putih Merah gw ngerasa aman banget. Masih anak-anak. Orang dewasa cenderung melindungi anak-anak berseragam Putih Merah .
Seragam Putih Biru..Jamannya bandel. Gak aman. Serampangan. Labil. Gak bisa naik motor tanpa merasa was-was di jalan raya.
Seragam Putih Abu. Udah bisa punya KTP. Udah bisa punya SIM. Udah bisa jaga sikap. Kalo mau jalan-jalan naik motor pake seragam juga biasa aja. Udah bisa mikir. Harusnya udah bisa lebih dewasa.
Disini ini yang gw bingung. Kok kayaknya gw gak dewasa-dewasa ya? Padahal bentar lagi udah mau 17 tahun. Udah bakal punya KTP. Terhitung sebagai warga negara yang sah. Tapi sepertinya kelakuan gw masih jauh dari dewasa...
Sebenernya, Dewasa itu apa sih? biar gw bisa bilang gw belum dewasa. Gw juga ga ngerti mesti dewasa itu kayak gimana..
yak kayaknya itu celotehan asal gw hari ini.. gara-gara kecapekan kali ya +_+..

Love Light - CN.BLUE

 because of WGM i loved this song..
check the lyrics under the cut

these days....

akhir akhir ini masalah dateng terus ... ga ada berhentinya...
tapi yah namanya hidup masa iya ga ada masalah...
sekarang lagi nyoba nyelesein satu-satu.. Bismillah semoga berhasil..

I have nobody to depend on right now

haha... it seems that the title says everything....
maybe not... i don't know ...
these days i feel so hard to live..
problems keep getting on my way and prevent me to do what i really want to.
people keep putting negative impressions on me when they don't really know anything about me.
if they keep on to be like that, i can't help but to think about it and forgetting the other things which is maybe more important than this.
maybe this is just a simple problem, but it getting bigger because it's not done yet.
it drives me insane.

my body seemed not to work.. i barely feel anything.. just because something like this..

these days i keep saying nonsenses..
my thoughts keep going everywhere when my body is just staying in one place.
i can't focus on one thing..

i don't want to go back to the time where loneliness surrounding around me.

useless...stupid...

Ah~ I haven't post anything here lately...
Even my posting is not really interesting to read but i think this is what i really can do to keep my memories in my life... so when i grown-up, i can go back to the time where i want to .. haha...
ugh, what am i talking about =____=a

So F.CUZ makes their comeback with "MIDNIGHT SUN"...
But i didn't watch their performance in music bank on Friday. Since i was busy at school ..
There was an event in UNJ(Universitas Negeri Jakarta).. It's japanese festival which i forgot the name, and my "family"(?) went there when i can't.. because my mom didn't allowed me to go.. I felt really upset with myself since i can't help them a lot and i think i'm getting didn't care about them and then i can't go even just for support them....I think i really am useless... and stupid...and can't take any responsibilities for everything....why i keep talking about this nonsense anyway????

I don't know what to do since i'm getting so far away from them.. .i can't be there when they need me,,, will they by my side when i need them?  i don't think so.. i must prepare myself for that time.. the time when i need them the most but maybe they won't be there..
sigh i think that's all what i want to say for now... bye bye~